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Monday, January 31, 2011




it took a whole year for my hair to get to that length. my goodness. damn slow -.- sheesh. I can't wait for my hair to get long long loooong :D


Hilary says:
 i know. but Cherry is easier to remember and pronounce. No pun intended.
Rachel says:
 how is that a pun hilary...........


HAHAHA I STILL REMEMBER THIS

Sunday, January 30, 2011



You know what everyone, if any of you want to MIA from my life without telling me why or saying goodbye, 
I don't give a flying fuck anymore.

Why should I try means and ways to keep us from drifting apart, when you don't even make the effort. Without me, you will die because I am your heart? Don't speak like that so readily if you don't intend to mean it. 

I love you like my real little sister. & I mean it. 
Too bad life is unfair.


Saturday, January 29, 2011

I knew it was coming, but I didn't expect it to come so fast. Or rather, I didn't want it to happen so fast. 6 months. That's all my grandfather has left to live. I was never close to him. But I always had that utmost respect for him. He always felt so strong to me. Noble and full of authority. He always doted on my brother and me. and he always buys treats for Dumppy. He was the only father figure I had in the family.

I remember crying my heart out that day at West Coast when someone or something, I can't remember, reminded me of my late grandmother. That day happened to be her first death anniversary. Now my grandfather...I can't bear to see him go. There's so much I want to show him when I'm older. When I achieve my dreams. I wanted him to be there, looking at me with pride. 

The worse feeling in the world, is the heart wrenching pain of losing someone dear. I literally feel the pain in my chest. It's so painful.

Thursday, January 27, 2011


OMG IT'S ONLY THURSDAY. Been such a busy ass week. Tomorrow's gonna be one more long day. Fridays always have to be long, don't they. Stupid girls' school. -.- I was forced to do CIP today...I thought I managed to escape it yesterday, but I came to school this morning and received the news that I would still have to go do the CIP with another class today. Fml. So for CIP, we sold cookies and muffins (like freakin girl scouts) at Tampines Giant to raise funds for the ex-convicts. To help aid their family and to also to help them re-integrate with society again.  I have to admit, it was pretty fun. We got shot down by many stingy aunties & uncles, but still, it was heartwarming to see that there are still people who would donate a $10 bill without asking for anything. 

Even though I was pretty upset that I was forced to go on the trip in the beginning, I ended up having some fun! Siveeta, Sonia and I were selling cookies and muffins pretty quickly! Of course with the help of our innocent acts, sweet smiles and battering of our eyelids (; I remember our tactic of approaching every guy that looked like an ex-convict. Hahaha and fat kids cuz they prolly might wanna eat the muffins and cookies more, rich looking aunties, caucasians, oh and NS men cuz we knew they couldn't say no while wearing their uniform! Hahaha. The ah bengs and mats were the easiest to score. How could they say no to cute girls in uniform? (;

Siveeta, Sonia and I managed to sell 4 whole cartons of cookies & muffins within 3 hours! Whew! We're good entrepreneurs. Hahaha. We also managed to garner many donations. Every class thought that this class was a bit nuts when we announced the goal amount. Every other class were aiming for $400 - $600. Everyone didn't seem to quite believe it when 5A2 announced that they aim to earn $1,000. Everyone else kind of laughed...but guess what, 5A2 garnered $1,080 from the cookies & muffins sales alone. Which means, it's EXCLUDING the donations in the coin boxes! & that should amount to about a few hundred bucks as well! Awesomeee.


Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Buddy Handleson. 

THE cutest little boy I've EVER seen! Even his name is damn cute. I bet not many people watch Shake It Up on Disney, cuz it's not airing in Singapore yet...but I couldn't wait :P But once you watch it and you see Buddy, you'll fall in love with him right away!


Monday, January 24, 2011

Yes, give me an opening on your face to SLAP!

Moron! Just when I posted on my Facebook wall that your dance is my inspiration, you tell me that you gave my number to a random guy named Paul who claimed to know me?! I don't know any Pauls from your school!!! -__________- I swear I want to slap you!

Saturday, January 22, 2011

My heavens. All guys should have fringes. Even with the glasses, he still looks so damn sexy ♥
Don't you love guys with that sexy one ear pierced? (;

Friday, January 21, 2011

HAHA (;

Awww I just read my piggy's blog. So cuteee...she's in loveeeee. So in love that when he doesn't reply her text fast enough only, she gets paranoid. Aw, so adorable. (: The both of you would be damn cute together. You two will probably do taekwondo sparring on your first date HAHAHA. I can't even believe my piglet's 14 years old this year. In my heart, she will always be that 13 year old pork I came to knew and love sofuckingmuch. (:

If that guy ever does anything to break the piglet's heart, he will find a whole army of turtles, owls, black puppies, starfishes, cows, squirming towgays and walking cactuses all surrounding him.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

I FEEL LIKE SUCH A SMART ASS :D

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

I miss you. and that is an understatement, but I don't know how else I could express it. It feels like a dagger piercing through my heart whenever I think of you. It's so painful, just thinking about how I'm supposed to go through with the rest of my life without you. 
I wanted to go through O's with you. 

I wanted to call you up the minute I receive my results and rejoice with you. 
I wanted to go to Lasalle with you. 
I wanted to have my college experience with you. 
I wanted to tell you all my future secrets.
I wanted you to be the one who inspects the boys first before I gave them a chance.
I wanted you to be at my wedding.
I wanted you to be my first child's god mother.
I wanted to grow old with you.
I wanted to leave this world knowing that you are by my side.
I wanted you to be my sister until the day I die and beyond.

Maybe, the reason why I'm still being a bit resistant to him, no matter how great he is, is because you haven't met him yet. because I can't feel so confident without a thumbs up from you. because that's how much you matter to me. but I can't seem to do anything about it...



I can't believe this is the only picture of me, wearing my Dr Martens, so far -.- 
It's already January 18 and I don't even have both feet in the picture!

I realize that I got fairer. YAY! Though I also realize that I suddenly became WAY fairer. 
This might be unhealthy...O_O Or it could be the effect of my darker hair....ahh, who cares. I'M FAIR! :D

jet black jet black jet black ♥

JET BLACK!!! ♥
I like how jet black my hair looks in the photo the most. Cuz I hate those photos where my red hair is showing ): but stupid Kevin has to ruin everything with his fetish for trying to take unglams of everyone -.-

Gosh I cannot get enough of JET BLACK!!! ♥
I swear, I hope that I won't look back at this in future and be thinking differently ): I wanna have jet black hair for a nong nong time.



Sunday, January 16, 2011

Did a bit of rearranging in my room today. My room seems to be filled with many things from my many shopping trips and I always wondered why I still always complain about having nothing to wear. Then, after really looking at the things I actually have today, I realized where all my money went - I spent too much on accessories. Gosh. Hmm. When I look back at this in future, I'll be like, "Haha! I used to have so little clothes!"

Scarves and booties baby.

Oh I remember when I was crazy over Converse sneakers. :P



Whoo! Overflowing. Just one look and I already feel lazy to pack them properly -.-

Just overflowing everywhere!

Hmm...I think, for  lipsticks and lipgloss, I can get more. :P

Sigh...I'll only use these babies during the next holiday ): SEE! Got dust already!!

While looking through the stuff I have, I found this L.A Girl lipstick I forgot that I bought! 
DAMN I'M IN LOVE WITH THAT COLOUR. ♥ Goes so damn well with my jet black hair.


My bags...

and of course, my precious earrings collection :D 
as for earrings, a girl can never have too many.

and then you look at my wardrobe. -.- I have majority in casual shirts and shirts I used to wear for dance and all. But now I rarely need to where them! Hehehe SHOPPING TIME! :D
- note to self: don't buy any casual shirts and accessories (accept for earrings and necklaces) for awhile! Yeah I realize I have like damn little necklaces -.-



New 13th lost sign - Ophiuchus (Nov 29 - Dec 17)

Now I'm an Ophiuchus?! Aww...I was proud to be a Saggitarian ): I used to love the whole half man half horse thing, & now I'm a serpent holder? Awww man...

Thursday, January 13, 2011

LOOK AT THAT! JUST LOOK AT THAT!

I am still in shock. I PASSED MY O LEVEL CHINESE B! OMG! OMFG! I thought I'd never live to see the day where I have the words "Chinese" and "Pass" on the same paper!!! LET ALONE FOR O LEVELS! AHHHHH! This is a moment for me. And so now I don't have to take Chinese this year! WHOOOOOO! I am still in awe though! Like, how the hell did I do it?! Even Chinese B was like damn hard! 

Monday, January 10, 2011

I was reorganizing my room when I stumbled upon things from the past that brought a flood of memories. This includes my old Thespian journal! You'd be surprised at how much things from the past I actually have kept! Let's take a look at the stuff I found and some of what I've been recording in my journal for the past 2 years and go backwards, shall we? (:

One my latest entries in the journal. Yes, I was very bad at keeping a journal up to date. I started the journal in the first place, because I wanted to have something that could look back with. Well it turns out that I'm not very good with keeping a physical journal. That's why I'm keeping my blog as one. (:

A moment I'll never forget. It was pretty scary, doing it for the first time without any proper rehearsal beforehand!


My Colours Of Asia entry!

A snipet of my journal during the time Afiq left.

Snipets of my loooooong journal entries about Hua Hin & Children Of Asia!



I remember this.... (:








I found some old pics of the Moody team that no one uploaded on Facebook or anything!
PS: Look at how much Hilary has slimmed down!

I think this is so cute.

This photo wasn't intended, but it just so happens that this is a pic of the Hua Hin Moody Team!


"You don't have to call anymore, I won't pick up the phone!" Ohhhh those days.

Haha, I remember this...


DARE TO DREEEEEAM!

We never got to do that Mad Magazine style of Flowers In The Desert!

I remember Jerzy Grotowski!

The script written for the MC of Pierrot!





I wonder how many ex-squadies still have this!


My MCYS Percussion entry!



Yes....I still have this.

HEY ANNA! (:

HEY PEER!

I wonder how many people still remember this crazy convo we came up with during our first German lesson!

I did learn all of the above, and I am extremely grateful for that.

For when we were noobs!! Haha OMG 2008.....

And it all started with this form right here. 

It was a good two years. What a noob I was in 2008. I don't regret my life as a Thespian. I may have moved on already, but I still look back and remember the times we had. No matter all the shit and drama we had, I still think we had a good two years. and I didn't even get to record EVERYTHING down in my journal. What I have in that journal is probably like only 1/20 of everything.

I've learnt so much from just two people who started this whole thing, and I consider myself lucky to have encountered you two. Everything may be in unrepairable pieces right now, but I will never forget everything. Everything I've learnt, everything I've been through, everything that groomed me into who I am today. It's incredible, how I don't even recognize myself before this whole thing became a part of my life. For that, I am indeed thankful. 

I don't hate anybody right now. Some may hate me, but I bear no more hard feelings, as I leave a parting message for my Thespian life, with all the bitterness that's going around, aside. Once and for all, here's to all of you, before I close this chapter of my life.

To you: You probably hate my guts right now. But I would much rather that, than being like the rest that caused too many tears by leaving. Everything aside, I just want to thank you for everything you've done for me. You were willing to give up everything just to do what you thought was right. I always thought you were the coolest mom I've ever known. Veronica is very lucky to have a mother like you. I sincerely wish you all the best in your future endeavours. You may hate me to the core right now, but I just want to let you know that in future, if you ever really need it, just ring me and I will help, and just because I want to and nothing else.

To you: You too, probably hate our guts too. But I just want to thank you for everything you've done for all of us. No matter what was said and everything else, you still did gave up a lot for our dreams. You could have easily led on with your own life comfortably. I've done the accounts and I know what the income from schools is like. You could have. But you chose to give it up for us. I thank you for grooming me since 2008. I've learnt so much, from life to dance to tech. There is no one else who could teach me the same, and ask for nothing in return.

To you: After all I've said to you, you should probably hate me to. and I want you to hate me. I'd much rather that. But in my heart, you will always be my sister. I've been through so much with you, more than I have been with anybody else in my entire life. People come and go, but you were always there. I have photos to decorate my room wall. Of all the people in my photos, you were the only face that I knew, who stood by my side the whole time. But now I have to go my own way. I wish you all the best too and I hope you achieve your dreams. Just the same, one day, when you really need it and have no one else to fall back on, just call and I'll come running. I know you hate me right now, but I will still promise to come running.

To you: Sigh. I really need you in my life. When I don't see for you just a few days, I'd feel like I lost my big brother for months. I've already said to you everything I needed to say. But just one more thing. I'll always be here if you ever need me. and I love you. a lot. and I miss you. a lot.

To you: Right now I know you're struggling to make what's left of the company work. But I know you can do it. There will always be new Thespians you could recruit. I know time is probably an issue, because training them would take a long time, but I just wanted to let you know that I believe you have it in you to inspire younger ones as well. I thank you too, for teaching me many things in the tech world, and for rescuing me whenever I cannot carry something heavy. :D and honestly, you were always the only one who bothered to ask me if I'm okay. I miss you for that. 

To you: I know sometimes you feel lost too. & I'm glad we share almost the same future plans. (: Because at least I know I'm not entirely alone. I love you. I hope that even when we are old and frail, we'd still call each other and go "Hey! Let's go play chess!" or something! Hehehe, or do old people shopping. HAHA. Gooooooooo OLD PEOPLE! Hahaha I bet you'd know where that was from!

To you: I KNOW you hate hate my guts right now. But we were once good friends and I do miss those times. The times when we would laugh so hard at the word "Pattaya". The times when we would do miniature "clubbing" at Dinner & Dance events...those times...but I don't know what happened. We started hating each other and all that. Even though you hate me to the core right now, I used to hate you as well, but I bear no more hard feelings, as I have moved on. I just wanted to let you know that I do miss you and the times we had. I sincerely do. 

To you: I will never stop loving you my piggy. No matter what you do, with that pig brain of yours. :P Argh, you're so adorable, I wanna squeeze you until you cannot breath, hahaha. Well I just wanted to let you know, that I am sorry. I promised you that I will teach and guide you every step of the way. But I must apologize that I can no longer do that. For I have to move on and go my own way. However, anything else in life you have a problem with, I am still your big sister you can run to for help. Just call me and say "oink oink".

To you: I miss you, you know that. I miss teasing you and your jupitan-ess and your blackness and your bangla-ness. I love how we're able to tease you about these kind of things but you never got angry. Instead, you joke along with us. You're really one of a kind and I wouldn't trade you for anything. You were very patient with me when I needed help with Math. Btw, I so have to bring you out and treat you to a movie or a meal or something, because I scored a B3 for my N'Level Math!! All thanks to you! Before you tutored me, I didn't even believe I could score more than a C5! and I miss your rapist face. Hahaha! I do miss you a lot.

To you: I remember when you first came in. I never thought much of you. But look at you during Colours Of Asia and Silent Minds! I remember crying so much when you first displayed your talent. I was just SO happy! I will never forget that, because I rarely cry out of happiness. But I loved you so much and I was always worrying about you, and what you showed us that day...I couldn't help but feel so darn happy, I couldn't control the tears! Well, which ever path you choose to go on now, I wish you all the best. I hope that one day, the world can see your talent too. 


I'm sorry but I have to go. But I miss all of you. I miss the times we had. and deep down inside of me, I do wish I could see you guys again.