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Monday, January 10, 2011

I was reorganizing my room when I stumbled upon things from the past that brought a flood of memories. This includes my old Thespian journal! You'd be surprised at how much things from the past I actually have kept! Let's take a look at the stuff I found and some of what I've been recording in my journal for the past 2 years and go backwards, shall we? (:

One my latest entries in the journal. Yes, I was very bad at keeping a journal up to date. I started the journal in the first place, because I wanted to have something that could look back with. Well it turns out that I'm not very good with keeping a physical journal. That's why I'm keeping my blog as one. (:

A moment I'll never forget. It was pretty scary, doing it for the first time without any proper rehearsal beforehand!

My Colours Of Asia entry!

A snipet of my journal during the time Afiq left.

Snipets of my loooooong journal entries about Hua Hin & Children Of Asia!

I remember this.... (:

I found some old pics of the Moody team that no one uploaded on Facebook or anything!

PS: Look at how much Hilary has slimmed down!

I think this is so cute.

This photo wasn't intended, but it just so happens that this is a pic of the Hua Hin Moody Team!

"You don't have to call anymore, I won't pick up the phone!" Ohhhh those days.

Haha, I remember this...

DARE TO DREEEEEAM!

We never got to do that Mad Magazine style of Flowers In The Desert!

I remember Jerzy Grotowski!

The script written for the MC of Pierrot!

I wonder how many ex-squadies still have this!

My MCYS Percussion entry!

Yes....I still have this.

HEY ANNA! (:

HEY PEER!

I wonder how many people still remember this crazy convo we came up with during our first German lesson!

I did learn all of the above, and I am extremely grateful for that.

For when we were noobs!! Haha OMG 2008.....

And it all started with this form right here.

It was a good two years. What a noob I was in 2008. I don't regret my life as a Thespian. I may have moved on already, but I still look back and remember the times we had. No matter all the shit and drama we had, I still think we had a good two years. and I didn't even get to record EVERYTHING down in my journal. What I have in that journal is probably like only 1/20 of everything.

I've learnt so much from just two people who started this whole thing, and I consider myself lucky to have encountered you two. Everything may be in unrepairable pieces right now, but I will never forget everything. Everything I've learnt, everything I've been through, everything that groomed me into who I am today. It's incredible, how I don't even recognize myself before this whole thing became a part of my life. For that, I am indeed thankful.

I don't hate anybody right now. Some may hate me, but I bear no more hard feelings, as I leave a parting message for my Thespian life, with all the bitterness that's going around, aside. Once and for all, here's to all of you, before I close this chapter of my life.

To you: You probably hate my guts right now. But I would much rather that, than being like the rest that caused too many tears by leaving. Everything aside, I just want to thank you for everything you've done for me. You were willing to give up everything just to do what you thought was right. I always thought you were the coolest mom I've ever known. Veronica is very lucky to have a mother like you. I sincerely wish you all the best in your future endeavours. You may hate me to the core right now, but I just want to let you know that in future, if you ever really need it, just ring me and I will help, and just because I want to and nothing else.

To you: You too, probably hate our guts too. But I just want to thank you for everything you've done for all of us. No matter what was said and everything else, you still did gave up a lot for our dreams. You could have easily led on with your own life comfortably. I've done the accounts and I know what the income from schools is like. You could have. But you chose to give it up for us. I thank you for grooming me since 2008. I've learnt so much, from life to dance to tech. There is no one else who could teach me the same, and ask for nothing in return.

To you: After all I've said to you, you should probably hate me to. and I want you to hate me. I'd much rather that. But in my heart, you will always be my sister. I've been through so much with you, more than I have been with anybody else in my entire life. People come and go, but you were always there. I have photos to decorate my room wall. Of all the people in my photos, you were the only face that I knew, who stood by my side the whole time. But now I have to go my own way. I wish you all the best too and I hope you achieve your dreams. Just the same, one day, when you really need it and have no one else to fall back on, just call and I'll come running. I know you hate me right now, but I will still promise to come running.

To you: Sigh. I really need you in my life. When I don't see for you just a few days, I'd feel like I lost my big brother for months. I've already said to you everything I needed to say. But just one more thing. I'll always be here if you ever need me. and I love you. a lot. and I miss you. a lot.

To you: Right now I know you're struggling to make what's left of the company work. But I know you can do it. There will always be new Thespians you could recruit. I know time is probably an issue, because training them would take a long time, but I just wanted to let you know that I believe you have it in you to inspire younger ones as well. I thank you too, for teaching me many things in the tech world, and for rescuing me whenever I cannot carry something heavy. :D and honestly, you were always the only one who bothered to ask me if I'm okay. I miss you for that.

To you: I know sometimes you feel lost too. & I'm glad we share almost the same future plans. (: Because at least I know I'm not entirely alone. I love you. I hope that even when we are old and frail, we'd still call each other and go "Hey! Let's go play chess!" or something! Hehehe, or do old people shopping. HAHA. Gooooooooo OLD PEOPLE! Hahaha I bet you'd know where that was from!

To you: I KNOW you hate hate my guts right now. But we were once good friends and I do miss those times. The times when we would laugh so hard at the word "Pattaya". The times when we would do miniature "clubbing" at Dinner & Dance events...those times...but I don't know what happened. We started hating each other and all that. Even though you hate me to the core right now, I used to hate you as well, but I bear no more hard feelings, as I have moved on. I just wanted to let you know that I do miss you and the times we had. I sincerely do.

To you: I will never stop loving you my piggy. No matter what you do, with that pig brain of yours. :P Argh, you're so adorable, I wanna squeeze you until you cannot breath, hahaha. Well I just wanted to let you know, that I am sorry. I promised you that I will teach and guide you every step of the way. But I must apologize that I can no longer do that. For I have to move on and go my own way. However, anything else in life you have a problem with, I am still your big sister you can run to for help. Just call me and say "oink oink".

To you: I miss you, you know that. I miss teasing you and your jupitan-ess and your blackness and your bangla-ness. I love how we're able to tease you about these kind of things but you never got angry. Instead, you joke along with us. You're really one of a kind and I wouldn't trade you for anything. You were very patient with me when I needed help with Math. Btw, I so have to bring you out and treat you to a movie or a meal or something, because I scored a B3 for my N'Level Math!! All thanks to you! Before you tutored me, I didn't even believe I could score more than a C5! and I miss your rapist face. Hahaha! I do miss you a lot.

To you: I remember when you first came in. I never thought much of you. But look at you during Colours Of Asia and Silent Minds! I remember crying so much when you first displayed your talent. I was just SO happy! I will never forget that, because I rarely cry out of happiness. But I loved you so much and I was always worrying about you, and what you showed us that day...I couldn't help but feel so darn happy, I couldn't control the tears! Well, which ever path you choose to go on now, I wish you all the best. I hope that one day, the world can see your talent too.

I'm sorry but I have to go. But I miss all of you. I miss the times we had. and deep down inside of me, I do wish I could see you guys again.


Rachel Durano Wan Create Your Badge Co-Owner Of: Archives March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 December 2012	Monday, January 10, 2011 I was reorganizing my room when I stumbled upon things from the past that brought a flood of memories. This includes my old Thespian journal! You'd be surprised at how much things from the past I actually have kept! Let's take a look at the stuff I found and some of what I've been recording in my journal for the past 2 years and go backwards, shall we? (: One my latest entries in the journal. Yes, I was very bad at keeping a journal up to date. I started the journal in the first place, because I wanted to have something that could look back with. Well it turns out that I'm not very good with keeping a physical journal. That's why I'm keeping my blog as one. (: A moment I'll never forget. It was pretty scary, doing it for the first time without any proper rehearsal beforehand! My Colours Of Asia entry! A snipet of my journal during the time Afiq left. Snipets of my loooooong journal entries about Hua Hin & Children Of Asia! I remember this.... (: I found some old pics of the Moody team that no one uploaded on Facebook or anything! PS: Look at how much Hilary has slimmed down! I think this is so cute. This photo wasn't intended, but it just so happens that this is a pic of the Hua Hin Moody Team! "You don't have to call anymore, I won't pick up the phone!" Ohhhh those days. Haha, I remember this... DARE TO DREEEEEAM! We never got to do that Mad Magazine style of Flowers In The Desert! I remember Jerzy Grotowski! The script written for the MC of Pierrot! I wonder how many ex-squadies still have this! My MCYS Percussion entry! Yes....I still have this. HEY ANNA! (: HEY PEER! I wonder how many people still remember this crazy convo we came up with during our first German lesson! I did learn all of the above, and I am extremely grateful for that. For when we were noobs!! Haha OMG 2008..... And it all started with this form right here. It was a good two years. What a noob I was in 2008. I don't regret my life as a Thespian. I may have moved on already, but I still look back and remember the times we had. No matter all the shit and drama we had, I still think we had a good two years. and I didn't even get to record EVERYTHING down in my journal. What I have in that journal is probably like only 1/20 of everything. I've learnt so much from just two people who started this whole thing, and I consider myself lucky to have encountered you two. Everything may be in unrepairable pieces right now, but I will never forget everything. Everything I've learnt, everything I've been through, everything that groomed me into who I am today. It's incredible, how I don't even recognize myself before this whole thing became a part of my life. For that, I am indeed thankful. I don't hate anybody right now. Some may hate me, but I bear no more hard feelings, as I leave a parting message for my Thespian life, with all the bitterness that's going around, aside. Once and for all, here's to all of you, before I close this chapter of my life. To you: You probably hate my guts right now. But I would much rather that, than being like the rest that caused too many tears by leaving. Everything aside, I just want to thank you for everything you've done for me. You were willing to give up everything just to do what you thought was right. I always thought you were the coolest mom I've ever known. Veronica is very lucky to have a mother like you. I sincerely wish you all the best in your future endeavours. You may hate me to the core right now, but I just want to let you know that in future, if you ever really need it, just ring me and I will help, and just because I want to and nothing else. To you: You too, probably hate our guts too. But I just want to thank you for everything you've done for all of us. No matter what was said and everything else, you still did gave up a lot for our dreams. You could have easily led on with your own life comfortably. I've done the accounts and I know what the income from schools is like. You could have. But you chose to give it up for us. I thank you for grooming me since 2008. I've learnt so much, from life to dance to tech. There is no one else who could teach me the same, and ask for nothing in return. To you: After all I've said to you, you should probably hate me to. and I want you to hate me. I'd much rather that. But in my heart, you will always be my sister. I've been through so much with you, more than I have been with anybody else in my entire life. People come and go, but you were always there. I have photos to decorate my room wall. Of all the people in my photos, you were the only face that I knew, who stood by my side the whole time. But now I have to go my own way. I wish you all the best too and I hope you achieve your dreams. Just the same, one day, when you really need it and have no one else to fall back on, just call and I'll come running. I know you hate me right now, but I will still promise to come running. To you: Sigh. I really need you in my life. When I don't see for you just a few days, I'd feel like I lost my big brother for months. I've already said to you everything I needed to say. But just one more thing. I'll always be here if you ever need me. and I love you. a lot. and I miss you. a lot. To you: Right now I know you're struggling to make what's left of the company work. But I know you can do it. There will always be new Thespians you could recruit. I know time is probably an issue, because training them would take a long time, but I just wanted to let you know that I believe you have it in you to inspire younger ones as well. I thank you too, for teaching me many things in the tech world, and for rescuing me whenever I cannot carry something heavy. :D and honestly, you were always the only one who bothered to ask me if I'm okay. I miss you for that. To you: I know sometimes you feel lost too. & I'm glad we share almost the same future plans. (: Because at least I know I'm not entirely alone. I love you. I hope that even when we are old and frail, we'd still call each other and go "Hey! Let's go play chess!" or something! Hehehe, or do old people shopping. HAHA. Gooooooooo OLD PEOPLE! Hahaha I bet you'd know where that was from! To you: I KNOW you hate hate my guts right now. But we were once good friends and I do miss those times. The times when we would laugh so hard at the word "Pattaya". The times when we would do miniature "clubbing" at Dinner & Dance events...those times...but I don't know what happened. We started hating each other and all that. Even though you hate me to the core right now, I used to hate you as well, but I bear no more hard feelings, as I have moved on. I just wanted to let you know that I do miss you and the times we had. I sincerely do. To you: I will never stop loving you my piggy. No matter what you do, with that pig brain of yours. :P Argh, you're so adorable, I wanna squeeze you until you cannot breath, hahaha. Well I just wanted to let you know, that I am sorry. I promised you that I will teach and guide you every step of the way. But I must apologize that I can no longer do that. For I have to move on and go my own way. However, anything else in life you have a problem with, I am still your big sister you can run to for help. Just call me and say "oink oink". To you: I miss you, you know that. I miss teasing you and your jupitan-ess and your blackness and your bangla-ness. I love how we're able to tease you about these kind of things but you never got angry. Instead, you joke along with us. You're really one of a kind and I wouldn't trade you for anything. You were very patient with me when I needed help with Math. Btw, I so have to bring you out and treat you to a movie or a meal or something, because I scored a B3 for my N'Level Math!! All thanks to you! Before you tutored me, I didn't even believe I could score more than a C5! and I miss your rapist face. Hahaha! I do miss you a lot. To you: I remember when you first came in. I never thought much of you. But look at you during Colours Of Asia and Silent Minds! I remember crying so much when you first displayed your talent. I was just SO happy! I will never forget that, because I rarely cry out of happiness. But I loved you so much and I was always worrying about you, and what you showed us that day...I couldn't help but feel so darn happy, I couldn't control the tears! Well, which ever path you choose to go on now, I wish you all the best. I hope that one day, the world can see your talent too. I'm sorry but I have to go. But I miss all of you. I miss the times we had. and deep down inside of me, I do wish I could see you guys again. 6:45 PM ·