<body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/5832454505748960783?origin\x3dhttp://goldapplause.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>

Co-Owner Of:




Archives
Wednesday, July 28, 2010


Jun Hao took nice photos. (:

My life is strange. I know exactly what I want to do in life. But yet, I also don't know what to do. What to do that will please that woman. I don't aim to please that woman. I just can't figure out what the hell she wants from me. Just one call from a teacher and she loses her entire "face". She does not know the pain her own daughter feels, walking in to that grey hell. She will never understand. That is why I try. I try very hard. I have been going to school faithfully nowadays. Does she not think that I wouldn't be rushed for Prelims too? Well that had shut her up for awhile until I missed school today because of my fever. Then she starts up all over again. What does she want from me. Does she not see the stupidity of trying to mug at home alone? It gets pointless when I cannot understand the topic and have no one to help me.  You know, Hakim has taught me a great deal in Math today. I can honestly say I can learn more from him than I do from that old lady in school. Today was fruitful for Maths and even a little Chemistry with the help of Han & Hakim.  

I can't understand how she thinks staying at home would be better. Can SHE teach me Math and Chemistry? Now why would I want a woman who ended up as a pre-school teacher, to help me with my N's? It seems like everything nice I do for her, seems like a very bad thing to her. Is it very wrong of me to try to get help on my own, rather than make her fork out the money for tuition? No. I let her spend the money on my brother instead and I don't complain any more. I've accepted her soft spot for my brother. It doesn't affect me any more because I have my own life to live and give a damn for.